Love Letter I

I feel like this stupid blog has already gotten too depressing, which was completely NOT the point of writing. Sooooo...I've decided to post a series of love letters that I've written to various people. Love comes in many forms. Embrace it.

I don't know how to tell you how much you mean to me. Any words I could say aren't enough. Even this won't be enough. I think about your face all the time. I think about your smile, your laugh, your kindness. You're so good to me, and I feel like I don't deserve it. I've hurt you in the worst possible way, but you forgave me. I don't know if I could do that. I'm in love with you. I want to be with you all the time. If I could--if I were allowed--I would spend forever with you. Eternity would be ours. I cherish our friendship, our love, everything we have. I'm sure it means more to me than it does to you, but that's ok. As long as you accept what I offer, I'll be happy. Will you do that? For me? I would do it for you. I would do anything for you. You're my existence. It won't always be that way, but I don't mind. As long as I can call you friend, I'll always be happy. I've never felt this way before about anyone. I've loved men with my body and I've loved a man with my heart, but I love you in such a different way. I kept my mind on him to keep it off you. I'm sure he knows it, too. I loved him. I still love him. I love him with every piece of my heart, but I'm not in love with him the way I am with you. My only wish is that I stop feeling this way because I know you'll never return my feelings. You can't. I understand that. All I want is for you to be happy. I'll do anything in my power to make sure you never cry or hurt or suffer. Ever since I met you, I've thought you were nothing less than incredible. I'm so glad you're a part of my life, especially now when things are so difficult and unclear. You've always been so quick to help, and you've never one judged me. That's never happened with anyone else. I'm so sorry for causing you so much pain. I promise I'll never do it again. Just don't go anywhere. Don't run like everyone else in my life. Don't ever make me chase you. Don't leave me. Let me keep you.